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FAITH
HOPE
LOVE
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i would stand by your window through the rain & the rust i'd wait here forever, til my bones turn to dust you smell like sunshine & cinnamon sundays in june i miss you as soon as you walk out of the room
a girl i knew...
her name is leanne you'll either love her - or hate her. wears her heart on her sleeve, shopaholic, spendaholic, wishes she were a superhero, in love with love, child at heart, daydreamer, prude, hoardes junk, tomboy, geek at heart. ♥'s
life. to live life with no regrets.
02 June 2009 standing at the edge of the earth i remember being 16 & completely in love with you. i remember how i used to climb you roof to get to your room. how we used to sit on the roof and smoke cigarettes like we were the coolest kids on the planet. i remember steady heart beats and warm hands. i remember your navy blazer around my tiny shoulders. i remember eskimo kisses to say i love you. i remember falling asleep on the phone together every night when we were apart. it took me the longest time to get over you. our memories suddenly mean everything to me - they remind me i was once loved. that i was once someone's entire world. i've forgotten how it feels to be loved... 12 May 2009 fortune favours the brave  20 April 2009 so one last touch and then you'll go and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more  This is the moment that you know That you told her that you loved her, but you don't You touched her skin and then you think That she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me Yeah, she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark And all the friends that I was telling, all the playful misspellings and every bite I gave that left a mark Then tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade But they did and so did I that day il m'aime un peu beaucoup passionnement! à la folie pas du tout 18 April 2009 and so the lion fell in love with the lamb i'm a shit magnet. i don't think it's possible for me to even try and avoid trouble. it will always find in the end. to add to the mess, i am possibly the worst judge in character ever. the good guys always end up being the pricks and in the process i've pushed away all the genuine ones. at 23 i think it's finally time to face the facts - i am a lost cause; you cannot save me. 08 April 2009 there are no fairytale endings  i remember the last time you kissed me goodbye. it was a warm sunday afternoon and we were downstairs from your apartment. i was about to board the taxi when you leaned in and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear before cupping my face & kissed me goodbye. i'm glad i have a good thing to remember us by. I watch you as you pull yourself away from me 02 April 2009 i believe in a thing called karma Mahabharata, 5:1517 i must have been a terrible person in my previous life. that is not to say that i am not grateful for my life now - but some of the rubbish that happens to me makes me really wonder whether i was responsible for the death of a small village in my prior life. having said that, here we are. right here, right now, in this very moment and though i've been on your side of the field time and time again, i'm going to take the gamble and play the bad guy. because i need this, to make me be okay again. i'm just sorry it's you that's been chosen. 03 March 2009 toto, i've a feeling we're not in kansas anymore  would it be weird to say i woke up this morning and felt like a different person? i've an ulcer the size of little china growing on the side of my tongue every time i light a cigarette it (the ulcer) fizzles a little, it almost feels like i emptied an entire pack of that crackling candy you could get as a kid onto my tongue. i'm listening to a lot of john mayer all of a sudden .. it sort of reminds me of when i used to sneak in through your bedroom window on late summer nights and out at the crack of dawn when the streets were still thick with fog, when the football fields were empty & the grass still damp, laced with the morning dew i'm finally arriving on time for things now, but somehow i've got all my days and weeks turned inside out weeks too soon, days too late. here's my secret; keep it safe. i clicked my heels & wished for you. 02 March 2009 i have been the worst of kinds, a sorrowed heart, a cluttered mind  sometimes things are so far gone, you know there is no saving it. at least, that's how things feel like with you. all of a sudden you are everywhere and it feels like no matter what i do, i just can't escape. summer is officially over and it's time to move on. i can't return to you you must return to me that's the deal 27 February 2009 when i was young, i collected my heroes  i used to be quite a handful. i liked everything just a little too much, i enjoyed having too much fun too much. perhaps that's why i worked in retail for so long - it accommodated that lifestyle all too well. and though everything is different now, there are still parts of the old me i just can't seem to kick - late nights & early mornings, the uncanny ability to arrive late to everything no matter how hard i try to be on time (what once would have been referred to as 'arriving fashionably late'). maybe that's why i love music festivals so much. they come around every now and then when i start to get that itch. tomorrow - i will momentarily get the chance to return to being the person i used to be. for one entire day, nothing will matter and i will be the ridiculously reckless girl that i once was. and when it's all over, she will be neatly packed away ... so much for staying out of trouble, right? i was a star amongst zeroes. but then i grew up & now i'm heading up the river 20 February 2009 who i am. who i was. and who i will be  i think horoscopes are absolute rubbish. having said that, i will read them for kicks. usually they are so far off, i would have to go ridiculously out of my way for them to become remotely plausible. "you may not like going back on your word, but who says you cannot reconsider an offer? Mercury connects with Jupiter for the first time since the end of last year so issues could be back in circulation. This is a good week for singing the dotted line where a financial or relationship matter is concerned" right now we're about three-quarters of the way there. perhaps this will be the one time i go ridiculously out of my for it to become remotely impossible. ♥ |
